Well, I guess it would appear to most onlookers that my life is mostly back to normal, considering I have not had any "eye drama" about which to blog for the last two months. In some ways this is true. I work full time. I drive my car. I am even taking another sewing class this month, and with the help of an automatic threader, I am threading my own needles. I am living my life the best I can, and I am thankful for the sight I still have.
Is my vision back to pre-RD surgery acuity? No way! This cataract is growing. I am thankful it cannot really be seen by others who look at me, but it is beginning to really obscure my left eye. I get headaches often, and covering my "bad eye" helps alleviate them immediately. Due to the poor coverage of my insurance, I am putting off the cataract surgery for as long as possible. I am engaged to be married in October, and my fiance's insurance will make this surgery much more affordable.
Besides, one of the scary potential side effects of a cataract surgery is a detached retina. I do not want to risk suffering that side effect before our wedding. As it is, five whole months after my vitrectomy and gas bubble surgery, my pupil is still not quite back to normal, but it is getting less noticable. If possible, I hope to avoid repeating that surgery and restarting the recovery process - at all, but especially before our wedding! I know it is vain, but I am not paying a professional photographer to capture my eye in a grusome condition. With five months to go until our wedding day, I am hopeful this RD surgery and aftermath will be undetectable in our wedding photos.
In general, I am trying to ignore the cataract and just live my life as though everything is normal. I wish I had the sharpness and contrast with my RD eye that I do my "normal" eye, and though I really cannot help thinking about that deficiency every single day, I rarely allow myself to dwell on it. Now, those thoughts are fleeting. They come when I feel a headache coming on or when I have to squint to see something, but generally, I have adapted well and get by without having to give it very much thought at all. Considering where I was five months ago, I have come a very long way!
